the best revenge is living well

ugh, I swear Y Lime? has consistently proved to know my emotions/life better than I do over the past three years.  A real post will be coming soon, but for now here's song lyrics since I can't find a video of this on youtube.

"let's do something destructive
so i forget the real sources of my sadness
i put band-aids on deep gashes to cover the past
but these wounds won't truly heal
now i pop a blue pill in the morning
and i smoke weed in the evening
leaving only my dreams to make me feel like hell
well i fell in love with another boy
another boy who will never treat me like he should
but being trampled and manipulated
makes even the slightly bad feel good
now each kiss you plant upon my lips
feels like poison, but i'll take it anyway
you see the world in tiny dots
each human being has a head of rocks
you live as thought you're surrounded by monsters
and i have no doubt that you are
but maybe it could get better
i swear i see some sunlight in your smile
oh you seem so far away
you are a dream, you keep me sane
you star in fantasies that i create
to block uncomfortable pain
you are a god, i am a child
i'm sitting outside in the rain
when i close my eyes
i see both of us lying in your bed
my mother cried on the telephone
but i'm to numb to sympathize
please just leave me alone
and i can't remember anything
cause i tend to always over-think
and live in alternative realities and daydreams
well take me with you when you go
i can't say here i need your ghost
you're the physical manifestation of my misery
oh you seem so far away
you are a dream, you keep me sane
you star in fantasies that i create
to block out uncomfortable pain
you are a god, i am a child
i'm sitting outside in the rain
when i close my eyes
i see both of us lying in your bed"